I’m not too sure why I wanted to fuck it all up for them, and for everyone who needed them to go out together. You know when you see T-shirts piled up in a clothes shop, beautifully folded and color-coded, and you buy one? It never looks the Rainbow Sun Bear Cloud I Hate People Shirt when you take it home. It only looked good in the shop, you realize too late, because it had its mates around it. Well, it was kind of like that. I had hoped that if I went out with Jackie, then some of that elder-stateswoman dignity would rub off on me, but of course without Phil, she didn’t have any. (If that’s what I wanted, I should perhaps have looked for a way to go out with both of them, but that sort of thing is hard enough to pull off when you’re an adult; at seventeen it could be enough to get you stoned to death.) Phil started working in a men’s boutique on Saturdays, and I moved in.
Rainbow Sun Bear Cloud I Hate People Shirt, Hoodie, Sweatshirt, Tanktop
Those of us who didn’t work, or who, like me, worked after school but not on weekends, met on Saturday afternoons to walk up and down High Street, spend too much time and too much money in Harlequin Records, and ‘treat ourselves’ (we had somehow picked up our mothers’ Rainbow Sun Bear Cloud I Hate People Shirt of postwar abstention) to a filter coffee, which we regarded as the last word in French cool. Sometimes we called in to see Phil; sometimes he let me use his staff discount. It didn’t stop me from screwing his girlfriend behind his back. I knew, because both Alison and Penny had taught me, that busting up with someone could be miserable